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heleninwales
heleninwales
Normal service will be resumed as soon as possible
I apologise for the lengthy silence. This has been caused by being away from home for about 10 days, first in Swansea because G was attending a conference and I was seeing the offspring and grand-offspring and then I immediately travelled to London for Eastercon. Though both trips were very enjoyable, recovering from all the travel and novelty and getting back into a normal routine took some time and then yesterday we were woken at 4 am by the hospital phoning to say that my Dad had died in the night.

I am still processing all this. Dad's health had declined to such an extent during the past few couple of weeks that death was expected. We just thought he would have a few more weeks, but really it had reached the point where him slipping away was a blessing because though he had lost the use of his legs and had been in a wheelchair for a while, he had not been in any pain, until now.

I've disabled comments because really, when someone is almost 94 and they've had a good life, death is not exactly a tragedy. I would have liked to have seen him one more time, but it wasn't to be. I'm not absolutely certain that he would have known who I was. In a way I lost my father a couple of years ago, though as recently as last year, occasional flashes of the old personality would shine through.

I don't have the words to express the tumult of emotions I'm feeling right now. He was a great dad and a super granddad to my to kids. He was well-liked by most people who knew him. I keep being ambushed by memories and then I find I'm in tears.