Helen (heleninwales) wrote,

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Sooooo tired

I hadn't realised I had got so tired over the past few weeks. But last week I went way beyond tired into symptoms of depression: wanting to burst into tears at the slightest provocation and feeling as though the skin of my mind was scraped raw and painful to the lightest touch, feeling as though I was operating on half a brain and kept forgetting to do things.

So Friday night I had an early night. Yesterday I had a nap for a couple of hours in the afternoon and another early night and now I feel merely very very tired. I keep yawning, but no longer on the point of mental breakdown. Which is good. *g*

One of the reasons for feeling stressed, I think, was that my unconscious mind knew what my conscious mind was conveniently shoving to one side, namely that I hadn't completed the final arrangements for the US trip which happens in 10 day's time.

So, in addition to the nap, yesterday I went through all the paperwork for the trip, wrote out a detailed itinery and dealt with the missing elements, to whit the hotel for the night before travelling and booking the car parking at Manchester airport. Also found the bus times for the journey from Chicago Midway Airport to Madison.

*Pauses to boggle slightly that this information could be found so easily from the comfort of my own desk on a Saturday afternoon.*

Last night I slept much better, without stress dreams. (The most recent one of which involved having to ice skate around icy streets and trying to avoid hurtling down steep hills by finding alternate routes.) Today I felt somewhat more restored and have done 3 loads of washing and hung it out in batches to dry. Also should totally finish the marking of the stories for the fiction writing course, which means 4 of them will be slightly late, but I am beyond caring. I'd rather do them well than rush them.

Still lots of things I haven't done, but with a functioning brain, I can prioritise better and hence will at least do the most useful things first.

Still no progress on the new novel, though there are thoughts slowly swirling away in the depths, a couple of which surfaced briefly this morning and will be noted when I have a moment.

But according to this, I shouldn't be writing a novel anyway:

You Should Be a Film Writer

You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind.
You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life.
Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling.
And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!

It's partially right. I am a very visual reader and writer, but I know I'm too old and live in the wrong place to even thing about getting into films. Though I did enjoy the play writing course I did this time last year.

Actually, I'm pretty sure I did this quiz before and got something different, but last time I answered with Moving a Mountain in mind. This time I was thinking of the new novel.


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