May 14th, 2006

View from study (sunny)

Sooooo tired

I hadn't realised I had got so tired over the past few weeks. But last week I went way beyond tired into symptoms of depression: wanting to burst into tears at the slightest provocation and feeling as though the skin of my mind was scraped raw and painful to the lightest touch, feeling as though I was operating on half a brain and kept forgetting to do things.

So Friday night I had an early night. Yesterday I had a nap for a couple of hours in the afternoon and another early night and now I feel merely very very tired. I keep yawning, but no longer on the point of mental breakdown. Which is good. *g*

One of the reasons for feeling stressed, I think, was that my unconscious mind knew what my conscious mind was conveniently shoving to one side, namely that I hadn't completed the final arrangements for the US trip which happens in 10 day's time.

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Still no progress on the new novel, though there are thoughts slowly swirling away in the depths, a couple of which surfaced briefly this morning and will be noted when I have a moment.

But according to this, I shouldn't be writing a novel anyway:
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